The Tempest Teapot

Light

2011-01-25T14:23:00.000-08:00

Where once my soul was cast in darkness,
now it is exploding with light.
Where once my heart was cold,
now it is filled with an all consuming fire.
Where once love felt like a bleak, gray, dungeon,
now it feels like an open field of wildflowers.
Where once there was nothing,
now there is you.

This Place

2010-10-15T15:18:00.000-07:00

In this place time stands still
All you hear is
The water
As it rushes down the stream
The wind
As it blows thru the branches of the trees
The snap of a twig
As the inhabitants of this place carry on their daily routines
You stand along the stream amongst trees that have been in this place since time began
You close your eyes and breath in air so fresh and clean like nothing you have inhaled before
The smell of the trees, and wild flowers, and water, and freshness surrounds you
You are intoxicated by this place
This place has a language as old as the Earth itself
You stand there in your spot by the stream
This place calls to you
Beckons to you to listen to its stories
This place welcomes you into its arms like a long lost sister
And you know you are home

Longing

2010-10-13T14:42:00.000-07:00

The anticipation of a first kiss
The sweaty palms
The pounding heart
The knots in the belly
The time is near, he draws you in
The breeze in your hair
The light in his eyes
The feel of his lips
The time here, he takes your breath
The knees go weak
The time stands still
The warmth of his embrace
The time has past, he parts from you
The thrill of his lips
The rush of your pulse
The lingering warmth
The memories of a first kiss

Letter to Keith

2010-04-08T16:51:00.000-07:00

Dear Keith,
Do you remember me? I met you so long ago. It was a hot summer day and I wanted to go swimming, I asked you to tie my suit. Should I have done that I wonder now. I was too young to understand the nightmare I was about to enter. I was too young to see the leer in your eyes and the darkness in your heart. I just wanted to go swimming like all little girls on hot summer days want to do. You took away my innocence, my childhood, and my purity. Why? Do you know how many times I asked that question?
What did I do to deserve what you did to me? Your depravity has stained my soul. Your ugliness has been burned into my brain. I can’t wash you away, nor reclaim that which you have stolen. So many years ago you tried to destroy the little girl I was. You took from me something that was mine to give. You stole my security and my comfort. You even stole my dreams. Why?
For years I asked myself what you saw inside me that made you do what you did. I told my self it had to be me. I let people use me and treat me bad because I thought I was dirty. I figured that you chose me because of that dirtiness. I blamed me, not you.
You have become the faceless monster of my nightmares. For so long I was afraid of you. Now I just want to be free. I want to close my eyes and not see your face. You are to blame for the your actions. You are the evil soul.
I banish you from my mind. I cleanse you from my soul. I will no longer be your victim. I set myself free by letting you go. I forgive you.

May God have mercy on your soul!

Signed,
That little girl you didn't destroy

In Your Eyes

2010-03-14T06:12:00.001-07:00

I look in your eyes
And I see myself
A reflection of my soul
That only you can see
I am there hidden in your depths
Surrounded by your love and warmth
My every breath
My every feeling
Yours and yours alone
My heart and soul
Forever in your eyes

Sunflower

2010-03-14T06:11:00.001-07:00

Sunflower, sunflower why do you face the sun
Is it because you are cold and weak
Do you need the suns radiance to warm you
Do you need the suns light to make you strong
Is it because you are daring and bold
Do you stare at the sun because man can not
Do you mock the sun with your defiance
Is it because you are envious
Do you match its color to prove your worth
Do you grow tall to reach its heights
Is it because you glorify in its energy
Do you face it everyday to capture its life
Do you feel its energy like we cannot
Sunflower, sunflower do you face the glorious sun
Because you are cold and weak
Daring and bold
Envious and awed by its life giving energy
Because you are strong an beautiful
And know what we cannot
Your secrets, will you keep them with you
Your knowledge will it go unheard
Can we mere mortals ever know your wisdom
The true beauty of
Sun
Earth
Sky
Flower

For Mama

2010-03-14T06:09:00.000-07:00

In the prime of life a flower blooms
Then all too soon fades away
The once vibrant petals
Now withered and brown
Fall from the flower to rot at its feet
Thus is the cycle of life
Accepted by the masses
A flower grows and dies
No one sees, no one cries
I watched you wither like the red, red rose
You left me one day never to return
A flower that will never again bloom
The vibrance of what you once were
Only a memory to the one who loves you
For like the flower you inspire me
You showed me the beauty of life
And the pain of death
Yet thru the pain your love still blooms
For I take you with me
In everything I do
And everywhere I go
I loved you then
I love you still
I love you till time ends

Choices

2010-03-06T04:22:00.000-08:00

I sit alone in my room
I see the darkness and the gloom
Eyes open but dazed and unclear
And I think, “How did I get here?”
My life started like any other
With a push and a scream
Cold and shivering I met my mother
Years later a shattered dream
Disillusioned and full of steam
I found an answer to this dream
A wild child I turned out to be
Defiant and unwilling to see
The destructive path I chose for me
The pain I thought the drugs would kill
Growing inside me bigger still
The more I tried to take it away
The more I hated to wake up each day
The pain I felt was unlike any other
Cols and shivering I met mother
Not judging or condemning me
She held my hand and helped me see
Another way that life could be
With new eyes the paths appear
Laid out before me, my mind clear
To see the choices that I could make
A new life, mine to take

Sisters (yeah right)

2010-03-02T13:16:00.000-08:00

Hey you, over there on your high horse.
How dare you tell me I can't say what I want to say.
Who do you think you are, perched on your tarnished pedestal.
You play your games and pretend I don't matter.
Who made you high shit of the manner.
All my life you take take take.
You want me to kiss your feet, well you can kiss my......
You say your better.
Not better then me.
You say your bolder.
No more so then me.
You say I'm nothing.
I'm something you can't comprehend in your tiny brain.
Go and live out your life in your squalid place.
I'm sorry.
I love you.

The Journey

2010-02-28T09:13:00.000-08:00

Life is a journey with no destination
Every time you take a step
You start again
Each day differs from the others
Each person you meet
Each decision you make
Adds another path
Until........
Your life is laid out before you
in a tangled maze of misdirection and confusion

So how do you find the way?

S.S

2010-02-25T18:35:00.000-08:00

This poem is for what I consider to be the best author I have ever read. I recently found out he passed away some time ago, and knowing I will never be able to read a new book written by him saddens me more then I can say.

The darkness would fall and my soul would yearn for the escape your words gave me.
In times of trouble and despair your visions would set me free.
With out ever knowing you, you saved me.
You lifted me when I was down.
You gave me hope when I was hopless.
Your words are gone now, but you inspire me still.
Your immortality lies in the worlds you created.
Your voice is forever heard by all who turn your pages.
I will never be the same.
With out ever knowing you, you saved me.

She

2010-02-15T17:12:00.000-08:00

Sanity slips away
with each passing day.
Normalcy disappears
with the passing years.
What happened to the girl I used to be?
Now stands a woman I know nothing of.
In my mind I see a little girl
crying to be free.
Freedom she yells with a pounding fist.
Freedom she cries with a horse voice.
She is there even now,
in my mind and in my heart.
I won't let her out.
I keep her locked there for no one to see.
Why do I lock her away?
She is my insanity
She is my hatred
She is my fears
She is my anxieties
She is my doom
She is my ruination

SHE WILL BE MY END

Empathy

2010-02-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

You see me meek and frail,
no confidence you say I have.
You see a side you want to see.
You look on the surface not underneath.
Between the lines of vision and reason,
lives a place where I reside.
A limbo of sorts,
where confidence is lost,
and empathy inhabits.
You think you are strong and bold
full of esteem.
You don not live where I reside,
empathy you do not have.
Where you are closed,
I am open.
Where you are unreasonable,
I am understanding.
I could never be where you are.
You are where tyranny lives,
with your nose in the air.
A snobbish town where equals are not present.
They do not exist where you are.
Where you live man is measured by fiduciary piles
and captive gains.
Where I reside the heart is Queen
and empathy is King.
Emotion is not a dirty word,
and feelings reign supreme.
Your shadows do not reach me here.
Your snobbish ways do not hurt me here.
Here I am free to feel
and live
and love
Here is where I reside

Bleakness

2010-02-12T18:58:00.000-08:00

The disappointing journey that has brought me here,
was disguised in clouds of familiarity.
The timid soul of a lost girl, in the wild storm of reality.
The weak spirit of someone who was pushed down,
pressed to conform to some else's model.
A prison built around me of my own making.
The grey walls my friend for so long,
keeping me safe from my assumed imperfections.
Then came a ray of light through the bleakness.
The fog of doubt cleared.
I stepped through the mist,
to see you standing there ahead of me,
beckoning me with the softness of your care.
The intensity of your eyes.
The gentleness of your touch.
The love in your heart.
The grey walls fell around my feet.
The timid and weak,
became strong and sure.
I have risen from the abyss that was my life,
to see the rainbow of hope ahead of me.